Soon enough it comes, it settles in its place, its shadow in my face, puts pressure in my day. 

This life well its slipping right through my hands,  These days turned out nothing like I had planned. 

I am constantly worrying about you, every time I leave you I wonder when I will actually see you again and try to block out the small chances that I might not see you again. I can’t imagine ever losing you, I don’t think I would be able to do it. Sitting there and listening to  you tell me the things you went through and how close I was to losing you, was one of the hardest things.

You are so beautiful, and such an inspiring person, I just wish you were able to see that... 

So much study and homework that needs to be done, I have no motivation though. I feel so weak, exhausted and heavy. Might as well just give up now.